I'll live, just, don't know what to do. I hate being like this, I hate that I care enough for it to be like this, I miss how I used to be where I used to not give a shit about people for the most part, almost feel like I'd be better off that way. Being a dick is where it's at, a'yup.
Sorry things are so bad. Inevitably, if you invest your feelings in someone, at some point you're going to hurt because of it. That doesn't mean it's a bad thing. Often it's just a bump in the road that you have to get through. Without knowing anything that's going on, I'm inclined to say it'll pass and things will get better. Holler at me sometime if you feel like ranting and need a listener. Hope things pick up for you soon.
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"Comrades, trust, and cooperation. Those are the only true treasures in this world." - Daccat
"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live." - Albus Dumbledore
"A pig's gotta fly." - Porco Rosso
Sort of freaking out right now in above average levels. I hate sounding this whiny, but I really fucking need someone here right now. I am sitting in my house alone stewing with the crazy shit milling through my brain, feeling utterly worthless even though I shouldn't, it's fucking crippling how upset I am right now and I hate that I am this way, I hate that I am this upset and I fucking hate all the shit that's causing it.
What makes it worse is every day I become just a little bit less able to handle it without causing a scene, I'm causing shit with real life friends, I've attacked a few people here and there on the forums because of it, and my hair has steadily been falling out, only in extremly small amounts, a few strands here or there, but it's happening none the less. I've tried talking to the one person who should be able to best help, and she's too wrapped up in having her alone time to realize that I'm at a point where I legitimately cant handle it anymore. I hate this.