10 years, huh. 10 years that I’ve spent in this forum and with the people that were a part of it. Can't remember much of the stuff that happened back then, but some of those were good times, others might not have been much fun or were rough due to reasons that i, someone, or something might have caused.
One of those things i somewhat remember is the time i joined the forums, somewhere around early '06, i believe?. i was still undergoing graphic design classes back then, and was a reader of the comics for some months before. I don't know what was the initial reason for joining the forums.... maybe because of the comics and i wanted to practice my (awful, then) english in a place were english was a common language for communication… or probably something else.. hell if I remember.
But whatever were the reasons, i joined this place and, boy, sure it was quite the ride. At the start, communicating with the people here was hard, mostly because my english was lacking in many areas and had a hard time reading and comprehending what the hell was being posted, also, my answers didn't help much and really confused so many people. I believe I was teased so much about it, that i got several nicknames and, when we had the daps/bats system, my bats counter was really high.
Fast-forward to a couple of years later and my english got a bit better, and finally was able to put together a somewhat decent conversation among people. It was still rough for me, but, while I was still teased, people picked on me less and I started to feel comfortable with the place and a few of the users.
As time passed (and some forum switches), I managed to get better and better with the language and with the users as well... some of the topics were silly, funny but awful, some had serious tones and backgrounds, others were about helping and give our opinion on the matter, and so on... All in all, it was an enjoyable time and helped me to understand how things were being discussed, your way of thoughts, opinions about me (positive or negative), and being a little more open... at least in a digital "public" space.
Change to current day, and I’m a whole different person. My english is way different from how it used to be (with the occasional slip), the relationship between the users is way different and gratifying, I’m more open-minded, managed to establish a friendship (or at least, close to a friendship) with many people of this forum, exchanged thoughts about issues that i personally had, asked for opinions about projects that I’ve done, collaborated in some projects, and so on!
I'm really grateful with how things evolved from the day I joined, to this day. I really enjoyed spending the time I’ve spent with you people, despite setbacks that could have damaged how we treated each other. All i can say is, thank you for the experience and thanks for helping me to be a little better at something.
An honest reason of why I’m leaving the forum is that I've been noticing for quite a while, that I don’t spend much time here, and that there might not be anything else that i could do to regain or retain my interest here... lately, my involment with the place has greatly diminished and i feel like that maybe it’s the time for me to move along. The forum's slow activity over the last years doesn't play much significance into why I’m leaving.
I really don't know what else to say besides thank you, and this might sound silly or downright dumb to some, but that's what i could gather from my own memories and some other passages. I'm sure you have more stuff that you can recall during my stay in the forums.
I'll keep the account active until the weekend or monday. After that, I’ll close it or ask to deactivate it.
Thanks again for being a part of the experience and for helping me grow as a person.
nah but for real it's been nice knowing you, siz. Whatever culture this forum has you're definitely a part of it. It was fun picking on you all these years so thanks for taking it in stride and laughing along. See ya, Siz.
Siz how can I keep track of you/follow you for the rest of my or your life.
I think, looking at the activity on the forum these days, a lot of people are likely feeling the same way. Like you, this forum has been hugely important to me and I am a very different person now, in some ways, because of it. There are people that I've almost never even talked to who I feel like I know and were still important in my life. I know that in years and years, not everyday but often, I will be reminded of you. There are a lot of people here who, when I see them doing well or succeeding, I feel proud and happy for, almost as if it was family.
Please let me know how to keep in touch, and that goes for everyone who is thinking of going.
I've seen a lot of your posts, and although I guess we never really interacted on a personal level, I'm always sad to see someone go.
I wish you an excellent future, man. I'm glad these forums meant as much to you as they did.
That said, I've never understood the purpose of these threads. If you're done posting, just don't post anymore. There doesn't have to be an end cap on it. It makes it all seem kind of silly if you ever come back wanting to post again once or twice (Dia comes to mind).
I can certainly appreciate the sentimentality behind it, but you don't need a grand thread professing your departure. This place is pretty dead as it is anyway. Most of us barely post anymore.
@Hoogie: Same here, buddy. It was funny seeing your posts about comics, movies, porn stuff (fucking porn, hah), and other stuff. I laughed so much with most of it. Also, if you see Rud, don't on him.
@Frood: Unfortunately, i don't have social media accounts where you could keep track of me, seeing that i grew bored of them years before Facebook and or Twitter became sort of ubiquitous nowdays. However, as Mega said, you could find me over skype but i barely log on due to Skype's problems with their mobile platform.
That said, its nice to see how you did some changes as well and i hope that you keep doing well and improving with your skills and anything else. I know that you have some really rough stuff with some events at the bakery and some personal stuff, but that can be solved, and maybe you could get some peace after sorting them. Until a customer comes and wants a 7 floor cake for the next day
@Person-guy & Oliver: Yeah, we didn't interact that much and we acknowledge each other, but it was good chatting with both of you on occasions. Good luck to both of you as well.
@Pen: Thank you. It has been interesting seeing you in the last few years... most of it with how you are in this place. You have been (and continue to do so) quite good with your posts, you changed your behavior towards certain elements (before, you used to be a bit of a prick, afaik. but that might have been due to the environment you were in), and now you have your own place!
I know things have been a bit harsh on you job-wise (even more so with how the CDN rate vs the USD..), but you managed to get a place of your own and you're fixing it to your tastes (pet included). I applaud you for that, and keep working on your place. There will be a day when you will be happy with how it will be or move to a better one.
@Mega: Yeah, it largely has been a good one for me. Good to see that this place too helped you change into a different person and be better for it. Like i said to Pooka, i'll be on Skype on or off at times, because Skype still has issues with its mobile platform.
Have a good one and keep fighting with your sheep brethren, you magnificent bastard
@Nami: To me, you're above alright. While not in specific instances, you helped me to improve my language and get a different view on things that i was clueless at first. There were days that we disagreed or were somewhat hostile towards a topic, and thought that you were being a bit of a bitch in those cases... but in a bit of retrospective, some of those were my fault and walked right into it, or the situation was already in a tight spot.
I wish better things for you, to be able to move from where you are, and a better stability, because you deserve it. And if you see Dia, tell her i said hello and that it was good knowing her.
Now, as for the 'purpose' of this, the posting or not and the whole grand departure of it... i see this more of a closure more than anything else. Some people need closure in order to finally put to rest a part of its past, or some others just discard it for no reason (hard for me to be one of both...). Granted, i could keep this account open and post whatever comes to mind, or check the place, but, i don't think i'd be doing it anytime soon.
Regardless of this being closure or whatever, it's just the way how i've seen things and how i wanted to express it. If anyone sees it the way they analyze it, they are free to think about this as they see fit, i won't change much my opinion about it.
The whole cutting off ties entirely thing, my two cents, personally I wouldn't do it if I was in your shoes, things could change either with you or the site that makes you wanna come back, and if you have your account closed permanently, it'll just be a slight inconvenience rather than having ties cut off. Maybe it's more a symbolical thing, I dunno, but, eh.
As for the stuff about me. What you said is helpful Siz, I have been trying to be better, or it feels like I am, I dunno, it's hard for me to really say if I'm making any steps forward or not. The moving thing is why, for the most part, felt like there was no better opportunity to change than a situation like this one, and my mood has definitely been better the last couple of months.
Anyways, you're a good person, and again I hope (if you do stick to the whole leaving for good thing) that your future is a good one.
Siz. Sizzles. Shadow-Zero. You're killing me here.
I know we can't stop you, but it's still sad to see you go. You're part of the fabric of this forum. Fanboys wouldn't be Fanboys without you. I mean -- dude, you have an emoticon named for you. How many people can say that?
I'll miss your snark and your Sizisms. You're a fun guy.
I know we've never talked much, if at all, but I did enjoy watching you post on here. I am not sure if there is anything I could that has not been said, or at all, but I do want to wish you the very best of luck
Sorry Hoogie, won't confuse you with woopy or Pooka again <3
@Inferno: Fanboys will be fanboys with or without me.
It sure has been fun with your participation on this place. Your journal has been a good read and a nice way to see how you have overcome some issues lately, and your endless chat with Virgo is always worth reading and have a laugh.
One final suggestion that i could give to you, seeing the last posts you made, is that to stop fretting over things so much and that you seriously need a change of environment, at least for a short time. I know that you have many worries now and that you're kind of doubtful about being a history graduate (it has happened with me.. sometimes i went too overboard with that thinking), but really, you're just starting with it.
Its fine if you are worried -who isn't?-, but don't let it take more of your own self and put you through situations you didn't imagine. Who knows... maybe you'll end up doing somethig not related to what you did or, you'll find a much better place than the one you are now.
Anyway, danke für alles miss inferno. And Dogma, take her to a place, you lazy ass
@Suds: mahBoi Sudowoodo! Yeah, we didn't talk much, but i do remember some talks and some stuff that you had to sort out. And quite honestly, you did well in those, despite the understandable fears you had at the time.
I wish you the same luck, and keep that friendship with Pen as long as it can possibly be.
@Jake: k bb! ttyl8r xoxo <3 <3 Also, Don't cheat on Grieves, because you crossed straws.
@woopy: Time to ride in my Cadillac with a PB & Banana sandwich in my hand towards the sunset.... Only to have a tire blow out two miles into the road like a bad flick.
Aww, Siz, you're seriously leaving? That makes me a sad panda . But I understand your reasoning though. It was so much fun talking with you, and I do hope you'll still show yourself in the skype group every now and then.
May you succeed in whatever you end up doing in the future
@Addy: Thanks Addy. I'll try to jump to the skype group from time to time, but i don't make any promises (and if mobile stops being a dick as well). Wish you find enough means and resources to move out, get what you need and, continue your relation with ginger bread Proffy-kun (you might remember this), if you're still together.
@Virgo: Yup, i'm leaving. I won't be around to continue to haunt your thread and make inappropiate comments in it, regardless of funny or not.
Still, it was fun to talk with you as well, upbeat attitude, funny remarks, teasing and all that... I might have had a small crush on you, but it didn't last long.
in regard to skype, see my response to Addy. As for my future... things are a bit on the dark currently, but i'll see what i can do.
Hope that you stay awesome, manage to meet face to face with your internet kleine Schwester (i can imagine the extended girl talk you two could have), avoid those forced marriages your parents want (hahahaha), and more. PD: Stop using your CC for buying games BU.
See you, Tomb. win the skeleton war with frozen pizza.
Chapter 4: तरति
Well, this is it..... Final post on this place.
Thanks to everyone who was interested in posting here, and same to those who read this. Dunno what else to say or what to add, since I covered mostly of I wanted to say at the initial post. As I said, I don't make any promises about skype, but i'll keep a lookout.
Since i couldn't find an option to deactivate the account on my User CP, i'm asking mods or admins to close it.
Wish anyone good luck in their endeavors and more, despite difficulties.